this song is pretty relevant here:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OdRlMnnmn4
But it cannot be described in some list of things I want to do in life, it is how I am forced to behave.
If for example, someone hurts me I can't kill that person or even respond in any meaningful way. I have to act civilized, but if I was about to die anyone who will show even slightest disrespect would immediately die.
You know those degenerates whom you can find on the street where if you say something wrong to them you will typically end dead.
also, I could approach women more easily because I would not care about damaging my social status So I could act like a dick without any fear. now I can't just approach a woman on the street and say something "hey you look sexy let's go fuck" or grab her but or tits or do other stuff which is inappropriate but whats degenerates do without any fear and actually have good success.
So if my life was about to end I would act like a typical sociopath. I may end in jail or get killed but who cares if my life is not even worth dime, engaging in the fight with police is also one of the fun things to do. (like playing GTA in the real-life LOL.)
Another idea is to take as much debt as possible and go for a vacation in Thailand
Maybe hijack some plane and fly around.
Take sweet revenge on everyone who hurt me. ( Not people who did something random but who treat me like shit.)
In general, I would love to do everything intense and exciting, It does not really matter what. I am pretty flexible here.
Since life is a game, the purpose of life is to have maximum fun before you die.
But doing 3d loli porn for gurochan is also a good way to spend time. During all of my life, I still had more fun that those sociopaths. And I still have the potential to get even more.