i was beaten and psychically abused as a kid, until about 12/13 years old. besides beating with a belt, ruler or bare hand, with the bonus of often having to wait for the "execution", i also remember having to sleep with my hands tied behind my back. i was brought up by my grandparents, and they probably thought it's the right thing to do, because they were brought up this way. or because they were fucked up in their heads having experienced the war. or maybe because i was a terrible child in pre-school, beating other kids and stealing stuff. whatever the reason was, i'm not sure to what extent that contributed to development of my fetish, or would i be worse had i not been subject to such strict upbringing. i recall finding scenes of violence with sexual tension arousing very early on, pretty much at the same time i started having any sexual feelings at all. and back then there was no internet- but films, tv and European comic books supplied enough material for a young mind to get properly rotten. i don't know the exact moment, but remember that scene from Temple of Doom where it looks like they're going to rip Kate Capshaw's heart from between her tits? although she was not my type. but Claudia Cardinale in Cartouche definitely was, and had a beautiful death scene… it went downhill from there.
very interesting! sorry that all happened to you, some people shouldn’t care for children :/ for me since having been told certain things, i like to look at death because it gives me a sense of what could happen to me. hmm.
idk how it affected my tastes, but it affected my ideals.
I know now that humanity is filled with cancers deserving only of being burned away.
LOL!! THAT COMIC!!! … *saved!*
Sorry OP. I have no idea why I'm into guro. That comic perfectly describes what got it all started for me though, like, perfectly, exactly how it started for me. Thats why I laugehed.
I stumbled on a couple of guro pics in a huge, weird, and very random porn collection online, way back when the web was still small and young. After the initial shock I began to explore guro and immeediately started remember all kinds of guro fantasies I used to have when I was a very little kid where I would get naked with girls my age in a comfy hiding spot then they would allow me to eat them for our mutual enjoyment… and i literally mean eat, like cutting off chucks with a knife and fork, till there was nothing left, but bone. I also used to fantasize about cutting them apart and putting them on display.
The thing is… my childhood was really… "normal"?? and Tame. I recently did a phsyc test to determine how good/bad my childhood was in order to figure out what sort of traumas I might have and treatments and such, but I got a really good score! I can remember so much of my childhood too. No black outs or strange blank spots.
Given how young I was when I first started thinking about guro it's like I was born having guro fantasies.
No, I'm afraid I had a relatively normal childhood with no significant level of trauma whatsoever. Some part of my brain is just wired to derive sexual gratification from this sort of fantasy.
I dealt with a lot of emotional abuse as a kid but nothing physical. I dunno if that counts. I'm in a similar boat as OP in that I don't really find gore arousing but I still seek it and other traditionally uncomfortable things out. I "like" feeling uncomfortable I guess? Like it's not pleasant but I still…like it. I don't really have a better way to describe it.
For years, I've asked myself about this, yet I have no earthly clue. wasn't abused, I was good as a child and yet, for some reason I love scat. I love hearing girls fart. Farting from a cute girl turns me on the most.
I doubt it but I was heavily abused..
Even now I'm constantly haunted. So many people are just cancer. They consume me in disgusting ways, my body is not my own. Then hate me when I fight back. If I win they resent me and glare like I'm somehow a thug robbing them or sonething. It's all hopeless and I always want to punch them in the face, or puke, or kill myself, if not constantly all 3. Even when I'm by myself or surrounded by strangers. I'm beaten down in the most disgusting ways and the emotional abuse makes it a trillion fold worse. Their faces.. I hate them so much. How they rub it in my face. Their lies and gaslighting and all they did to me.
It's far more than I could describe in a novel.
Yes I doubt this is why I like guro. Though I think influences my flavor of preference by the day.
I wasn't abused at childhood. my most favourite guro fetish has (like somone wrote here similar reasons) roots with guro-roleplaying-childhood-expcerience ^^amongst kids without violence.
Strange for me is only, that even I became just a little bid bisexual( i am jost into other cocks & balls ,not the stuff around them ; ) although those experiences were just with other boyes.
There was (non-sexual) violence in my childhood. So, while having my earliest sexual experiences, violence was on my mind. It's not a coincidence that I incorporated violence into my sexuality and aesthetics. Also, my mother is WEIRD and defended me from my teachers when I got in trouble for drawing crucifiction erotica in art class or reading 120 Days of Sodom in study hall, got me tickets to Hostel in middle school and accompanied me to the torture porn movies I couldn't get into, never said anything about the snuff mags under my matress that she DEFINITELY found, etc.
But, I like guro. I get off on it, and it spurs my creativity. I objectively wasn't raised well, but if that led to me having a creepy taste, it's certainly better than coming away with PTSD or engaging in abusive relationships or the like.
I had a good upbringing, complete with nuclear family and married, Christian parents who struck a good balance of protectiveness and liberty.
Regardless, I remember having guro-related thoughts starting from about 4. Peril in a Disney movie might have been the cause, but it also might have been biological. I don't know.>>8833
This happened to me as well. Sneaking off with girls before we'd even hit puberty (we were 7/8 at the time) and roleplaying guro-ish scenarios–I recall the dismantling and cannibalism of dancers pretty clearly–generally with a fork and knife like your scenario. I also recall the refrigeration of the remains.
Interesting that we roleplayed some of the most extreme possible scenarios and we didn't need PSAs on safe roleplaying or anything of the sort.