That's a long story :) also pretty interesting.
You may get me interested in those diseases as well LOL
Mine is a good example that sexuality is quite flexible
I do not remember anything from the age of 4 or 5, if I remember I have no clue at what age that happened. But I was born in the place and time without sex or anything even remotely erotic. I never even seen any gore or anything that could resemble guro. I even had no clue how babies are made until puberty. None of the kids around mentioned anything about sex in any way we never played doctor, I suspect that my mother also only had sex twice in her life that's when she got pregnant with me and my sister I never even saw my parents kiss.
Funny enough my sexual preferences started from guro after all as I think it was some kind Japanese movie where some general was committing harakiri, and he stabbed his belly with the sword. I had no clue what he is doing at that time but for some reason that made me aroused.
When I learned to read, my first erotic stories were fairytales that involve various mutilations. I think I was unaware of how to masturbate at that time yet. but I was kinda getting aroused when reading or watching things that involve mutilations and especially consensual ones.
The most arousing story was about the witch who asked her arm and legs to be cut to resemble the mother of the child whom she was trying to abduct. (I don't know what mushrooms my ancestors were consuming to come up with that kind of folk stories for kids but probably that was fly agaric as they grow all around)
I guess we could say that I was pretty obsessed by that as much as it was possible with the ridiculously little amount of content accessible to me and being totally clueless about sex. I had fantasies of stabbing myself with something in the belly and imagined it as it would feel similar to when a woman is masturbating with dildo except that I had no clue about vaginas and dildos at that time. None of those guro things were even slightly associated with pain or suffering. because in the fairytales cutting of a hand was less of a deal than cutting of hair. Story characters were usually very indifferent or even enthusiastic to get mutilated and probably that was the reason why I got into that. Enthusiasm is infectious. It still works even today.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.